I'm Lost

I am sick and tired of the way ignorance reigns, 

I am sick and tired of girls who think that being attractive is an occupation, 

I am sick and tired of people who refuse to move on from the past, 

I am sick and tired of the way we hold memories and not memorize those who hold us, 

I am sick and tired of living in a dirty and filthy streets and our houses are clean, 

I am tired of people pretending to care and only want a first hand account so they can spread it, 

I am so tired of parents forgetting their places and treating young kids like friends, 

I am tired of people like me who have so much potential and may not realise it, 

I am sick of the system put in place that institutionalize your mind and clips your imagination, 

I am sick of hearing that youths are the next generation when the elderly refuse to give them a chance. 

I am fed up with my anger that cannot be contained and poisoning me from within, 

I am fed up of telling people that things will get better when I don't believe it, 

I am fed up of always trying, always falling, always getting punched back down, 

I am fed up of thinking, of hoping of imagining that things will get better, 

I am fed up with myself for believing a new day may be different and history repeats itself, 

I am fed up of being helpless, of not having the tools to change your situation, 

I am fed up with rich relatives who pretend to care but know your problems just for a laugh, 

I am fed up with the political name calling and no one taking this poverty seriously, 

I am fed up for not believing that ten years from now, we will have achieved some development, 

I am fed up of being a girl, having beautiful words, heart and no one will listen. 

I don't want you to get me a glass of water I want you to feel my thirst, 

I want you to know about all my failed relationships, all my heartbreak, 

all my dissapointments, all my anger, and love me like I am whole, 

I don't want you to agree with me I want you to understand what I am about, 

I don't want you to illuminate my problems I can shine on my own, 

I don't want you to try and change me I want you comprehend what I am changing, 

I don't want you to appease and dry my tears I want you to hear my grief, 

I don't want you to judge me on falling short of expectations, I want you to reach my standards, 

I don't want you to just read my writing, I want you to know I am creative, 

I don't want anything from you, I just want you to find me when I am lost.