He Knows...He Understands...He Loves You!!!

Have you ever had one of those days,
when you try to kneel down and pray,
and you find yourself unworthy,
you find yourself being a hypocrite,
because you find yourself asking for forgiveness,
and you know you will do the same sin again?
you find yourself telling yourself that God
doesn't want to hear about your problems all the time?
You find yourself always asking things,
equating God with Santa Claus,
Have you ever had one of those days?

I am having one of those days,
when it all seems so helpless and I don't know what to do,
I find myself turning to God for advice on what I should do,
and I stop myself, I realise I didn't turn to him
when everything was going as it was supposed to,
and yet now I want to turn him into a divine bellboy,
to ask, and keep pressing for things I want done,
blessed are the pure in heart for they see God
because today, I am not that lucky,
I feel so disadvantaged, so full of problems,
and everyone seems to be taking me for granted,
I hate being taken for granted, so imagine how God feels.
Did I even remember to thank God today because
He didnt forget to wake me up this morning?

God's gifts put a man's dreams to shame
Yet we barely have the time to even remember his name,
God is good, He is with us all the time,
all we have to do is turn around -
to face Him, exalt Him, thank Him, worship Him,
because no matter how much we hide from Him,
He already knows;
No matter how we feel guilty and try to explain,
He already understands;
No matter how much we abuse and forget him;
He always loves us anyway.

Only God can help me turn my mess into a message,
transform my grueling test into a lasting testament,
so that my petty and magnanimous trials I become triumphant,
and make-over any victim into a sensational victory,
all we really have to do is have faith in Him.
Because in essence, Life is God's story,
I want to remember to let him write it, in all its glory.

I'm Lost

I am sick and tired of the way ignorance reigns, 

I am sick and tired of girls who think that being attractive is an occupation, 

I am sick and tired of people who refuse to move on from the past, 

I am sick and tired of the way we hold memories and not memorize those who hold us, 

I am sick and tired of living in a dirty and filthy streets and our houses are clean, 

I am tired of people pretending to care and only want a first hand account so they can spread it, 

I am so tired of parents forgetting their places and treating young kids like friends, 

I am tired of people like me who have so much potential and may not realise it, 

I am sick of the system put in place that institutionalize your mind and clips your imagination, 

I am sick of hearing that youths are the next generation when the elderly refuse to give them a chance. 

I am fed up with my anger that cannot be contained and poisoning me from within, 

I am fed up of telling people that things will get better when I don't believe it, 

I am fed up of always trying, always falling, always getting punched back down, 

I am fed up of thinking, of hoping of imagining that things will get better, 

I am fed up with myself for believing a new day may be different and history repeats itself, 

I am fed up of being helpless, of not having the tools to change your situation, 

I am fed up with rich relatives who pretend to care but know your problems just for a laugh, 

I am fed up with the political name calling and no one taking this poverty seriously, 

I am fed up for not believing that ten years from now, we will have achieved some development, 

I am fed up of being a girl, having beautiful words, heart and no one will listen. 

I don't want you to get me a glass of water I want you to feel my thirst, 

I want you to know about all my failed relationships, all my heartbreak, 

all my dissapointments, all my anger, and love me like I am whole, 

I don't want you to agree with me I want you to understand what I am about, 

I don't want you to illuminate my problems I can shine on my own, 

I don't want you to try and change me I want you comprehend what I am changing, 

I don't want you to appease and dry my tears I want you to hear my grief, 

I don't want you to judge me on falling short of expectations, I want you to reach my standards, 

I don't want you to just read my writing, I want you to know I am creative, 

I don't want anything from you, I just want you to find me when I am lost.