If not for YOU...

If not for you, I wouldn’t know

what true love really meant.

I’d also never know that

there is no better place,

To be right now,

Than on the floor,

Crying my eyes out,

Falling into a deep sleep,

To forget about the days,

Forget about the nights,

Forget about you.

If not for you, I’d never know

this intense craving,

to feel your tender touch;

to hear your voice;

No other one could take your place;

You’re it; I have no choice.

I block my ears,

From hearing the sounds,

Like your voice,

when you dedicate songs to me,

Those lovely songs,

They sounded to tender,

Now they kill me,

They hurt me,

If not for you, I’d never know

what its like,

When everything in the world

is beautiful;

Now, I don’t want to hear anything,

Don’t want to hear the waves,

Hitting against the sand,

Don’t want to hear the birds,

Singing outside the windows.

Don’t want to see my face,

Don’t want to see you,

Don’t want anything,

That has to do with you,

If not for you, I’d be adrift;

I don’t know what I’d do;

I’d be searching for my other half,

Incomplete, if not for you.

Now I want to forget the way,

You looked at me,

When you left me,

I want to forget,

I want to leave this world,

Close my eyes,

Fall to sleep to stop the heart,

From beating.

I hate you that I don’t wanna lose you

I hate you that I adore you

And I totally hate you the way I love you;

I hate me that I need you ,

I hate me the way I feel you

And breathe you, And taste you

I hate that I don’t have the strength,

Willpower, to let go

I hate you, I love you.

Now;

I just want to close my eyes,

just block away,

The world to stop the pain,

In my heart.

I just want my heart to stop beating,

To stop bleeding,

From your words,

Your love.

I gotta dislocate myself

from the tentacles

of my addiction,

To you.